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Charlie,
Your Amazing. texting with you has helped me. My tears havent left yet, but maybe they can become happy ones for you. Im sorry. and i know you know I am, but I truly mean it. I have held you close for a year and "3" months. And you have made me happy. and You were happy, but I knew you could be happier. I couldnt let you go. you were everything. Life Love Happiness. But I wasnt that for you. I've brought you pain and brought me shame. Im sorry. I dont know how to let got of such an amazing person. I could NEVER use words to discribe you. nothing is good enough.
“I wonder if anyone is really happy. I hope they are. I really hope they are.” (pg. 24)
I cant describe to you how wonderful the 1 year 3 months were for me. Dances, Banquets, Snow trips, soccer games, you ridding your bike EVEYWHERE. lol, RC cars, Baby-T. Friends, Family, homecoming, Lip sync, Pat & Oscars,welcome home party, poker, horse lessons, raquet ball, "50 first dates"....ect You've givin me the best memories, Nobody can take those away from me. I hold them the closest to my heart. You are still a big part of my life. I will never look at you the same as anyone else I know. You are a beautiful person inside and out and there is nothing about you thats not unique. you as my friend is something I will cherish for life.
I love you So much Charlie. and no matter what Happens I will love you forever. Your Still my Best Friend. You know me better then anyone who walks the earth. And I am here for you and I will always be here for you.
<3 Jessika
"Think of me as a wild animal, you loved but you had to let him go because you know he would be happier in the wild. :) "
(bad picture but it was all I had in my photobucket lol)
To everyone who has been there for Charlie through this. I know who you all are and you guys are amazing people. You guys love life and Love everything about it and thats Awesome. I know I have hurt you guys in a way and Im sorry. I do really care for you guys too and I hope we can see each other and still say Hello. Thanks for the good times.
<33
“So, if this does end up being my last letter, please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough.” (pg. 213)
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